Okay, I Admit It: I’m Tired (But I’m Not Going to Stop)

Do you ever go so long without writing a blog post that you feel like you’ve forgotten how? My brain has been in a gazillion places lately, and for weeks, there’s been a tiny voice in the back of my head whispering, “you haven’t posted a blog post in a while.” It’s been like a fly, just buzzzZZZZzzzzzzZZzz

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My instinct here is to just… make a list. “Here’s what I’ve been up to since the last time I posted here!” That seems a little silly, though, given that I’m constantly on Twitter and I share photos pretty frequently on Instagram. I’ve even gotten (a little) better about updating the cats’ Instagram, which for some reason I always forget to do. I take photos of them all day, every day. You’d think I’d share more of them. Oops!

The truth is, I feel like I’ve been busier these last few months of 2018 than I’ve been in a very long time. A list seems like I’m trying to downplay that, and I’m not. I also don’t want to brag too much, but I feel better about where I am right now, in this moment, than I ever could have imagined feeling last year when I tentatively dipped my toes into the freelance writing world by taking up a column at Rogues Portal.

So, forgive me if I get a little emotional here.

If you follow me on social media, surely you know how much I’ve been working on this year. A massive portion of my time and energy has gone into the initial planning for Fatventure Mag, which launches on Kickstarter on Friday, May 4. The response to this project has been utterly overwhelming and I’m so incredibly grateful to Alice Lesperance and Carrie Alyson for holding the reins with me and helping me steer us all toward success. Our contributor list is off the charts amazing, and I feel so honored to work with each of them and feature their writing and art in our first volume.

Business Cards! We’re so official.

Last week, I had the incredible opportunity to rep the Fatventure team and attend a “media meet and greet” party for women and non-binary creators doing the damn thing in independent media, and I had an absolute blast. The event was hosted by Damn Joan, which is easily one of the most unique digital media sites I’ve ever seen, and the attendees were from all kinds of incredible publications. It’s been literal years since I attended a networking event, and this one was at the cutest damn wine bar I’ve ever seen: Jadis wine bar in New York City. I’ve now visited the city a total of twice, and I can see why people love it so much.

This summer, Reed and I get to spend several days in New York City, which is going to be so much fun. We’re attending Flame Con for the first time, which I’m STOKED about! I’ll be revisiting my Bee and Puppycat cosplay from Halloween 2015, and Reed and I are planning a couple cosplay that’s going to be really incredible when it all comes together. (You can see my Pinterest board for my half here. Eep!)

Aside from working on Fatventure Mag (May 4! Mark your calendars!), I’ve also been writing sort of all over the place, about competitive card games and fanfiction and Mandy Moore and other stuff. I re-did my portfolio over the weekend to more prominently feature that work, despite The Verbal Thing not appearing anywhere on my massive to-do list. Sometimes you just need to spend some time playing with WordPress, amirite?

Today, this happened:


And there’s a ton of stuff coming up around the corner that has me absolutely reeling. So I guess this blog post is sort of my opportunity to pause, reflect, and then take a big, deep breath. I have to admit: I’m exhausted. Today, a co-worker asked if I’ve been sleeping okay. My body has been protesting all the time I’ve forced it to stay still in a sitting position (for bus travel and writing, mostly). My brain hurts.

But I’m not going to stop.

If you’re in a similar boat (exhausted, but still pushing), can I recommend a little music to get you through? Janelle Monáe released a new song with Grimes today and Kesha released a new song yesterday and the videos are great. TUESDAY MOTIVATION (or something).

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